Cellular..oh

Ask my friends what my passion is & invariably they'll say it has something to do with electronics. True. But ask people who know me very very well what my true passion is & they'll say it is throwing away money on mobile phones! True again. I was given my first mobile phone when  i was entering  9th grade about  seven years down the line, it has become a favourite pass time of mine to keep changing mobile phones. Not that wasting money was/is a dream of mine, but somehow, the urge to explore new trends in telephony has gotten the better of me!

I was having a conversation with a friend of mine, when she asked me if I knew how many phones I have owned over the   years. It was an interesting question .but even i didn't know the answer :)
 All those who kept advising me to get myself checked at a psychiatrist's,and  if you think I am completely out of mind with this habit of mine, well, I don't really care :P

Sealed with a kiss by Nandini !

just a thought !!

Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results.

 Sealed with a kiss by Nandini !

Sometimes..i feel

Sometimes..life's strange
Sometimes..its better not to show that you care
Sometimes..silence IS golden
Sometimes..you realize that you've realized something far too late and then you can do nothing about it
Sometimes..you realize that you are in love with your best friend :)

Sometimes..you have to hide your feelings,the pain,the agony,the anguish seeing your best friend in so much pain when  all you want is her to be happy.
Sometimes..you cant confess your feelings .
Sometimes..its better not to say anything,put up a smile and watch life going by.
Sometimes..you feel so helpless that it kills you inside..slowly,deeply,incurably.
Sometimes..you can see something  just slipping away from your hand but all you can do about it is stare at it helplessly
Sometimes..you reach a stage in life when you think you've done your share of hard work,you've been the most intelligent and sought after one for the time enough,then you adopt a laid back attitude in life though still not wanting to give away your prestitious position of being a perfectionist,to some one else..and then you feel like a loser..sometimes..most of the times..
Sometimes.. you think all that matters is  you.
Sometimes ..you struggle hard to fight back your tears but all you end up with is more of them
Sometimes..you try hard to put all your thoughts,frustration,sadness,fears,contemplation in a poem but what you come up with is just another cliche',hard to comprehend rambling which does not frustrate you further because you are already too frustrated to give a damn
Sometimes..you really ,badly, want things to be like they used to be..almost perfect
Sometimes..life can be so harsh
Sometimes..you are given no choices, only lectures about being strong and "deal" with it

 Federer- God,its killing me..
I - Me too..

consequently,


Still wild, will always be,Nandini !

If Only We Can

a friend and I were discussing.

why it would have been so easy if we had just taken commerce  because then...we would have not had to study our asses off in school.or college.or later,by the age that we get our degrees in medicine we would have been earning .....a shit load of money which would be greater than a doctor's peak anyday,all the 'cool' and non nerdy  looking are there only :P .....we would have smoked pot by 17...[well  not me.. that is wat my friend was thinking] .we would be wearing low waist jeans and the and other funky stuff , medical students would be cursing our luck on how we manage to earn, have a bf/gf and enjoy life while they dont even have a degree.:P
we wouldnt have been able to crib about anything and everything..we would be in a drunken stupor right now.and on muchloadsofweed.again [NOT ME]:P. we woulnt be cribbing about singleton.we would have said that it rocks,and none of us would have a blog, unless it was ordered to us by our gf/bf. oh!we would have gf/bf to have n to hold :)



but you know. I still wouldnt trade my places with a commerce ppl right now. thats because....
we may crib, but we have our pride(something only med students may understand)
huge self respect. loads of money, someday, hopefully.a future plan. :D

work enjoyment(not applicable to students) emphysema and cirrhosis on a later stage of life.


*this was a work of fiction and of two over tired medical students
*not resembling anyone in reality and not made to make fun of others.

Still wild, will always be,Nandini !

NOTHING !!

Being occupied with doing nothing is what I'm known for!! People wonder how can you do nothing...You know, you can do nothing by just doing N.O.T.H.I.N.G! See, not totally nothing, but doing something which you aren't supposed to be doing at that particular moment is counted as nothing according to me :P Like, if a friend calls up and asks me what all did i study, and if I'v read a book, watched a movie or played 25 games of SUPER SMASH BROTHERS , I'll still say I did nothing! Now if people assume by nothing I meant I was laying around on the couch counting the number of spider webs, its not my mistake! And I'm sick of explaining it to people,really! I'm constantly doing something, but the problem is that my mum going all crazy over me not doing what needs to be done has taught me that I'v been doing nothing! 


Still wild, will always be,Nandini !

R.A.N.D.O.M

Random things are the best to talk about actually! Meaning, for so long I'v been wanting to blog, and then I was without an idea...now that really doesn't help! So ya, I sort of realized that the best thing to talk about is total random stuff...and so here I am, hope I come up with some random stuff...Oh I will!

 

So as u may not know  I suffer from Agyrophobia...Its not as serious as Cancer or TB :) , but yes, it freaks the life out of me! Its basically the fear of crossing roads...sigh! All of my life and haven't been able to cross a single road without going through a minor heart attack and the feeling of being walked across the road by angels :) At such time, believe me, you do wish the 'jetpack'  Must admit, but it is a scene worth laughing at when I'm crossing the road! If I'm all alone,[AND IN WASHINGTON D.C.] you'll see me on the same side of the street for the next half an hour...contemplating wheather to run/hopp/crawl/skip/sprint/fly across the road now or later...I look right, then left, and then again right...then again left, then right, then left, then right, then left and keep doing so to make sure theres no vehicle coming...but the problem is, this left-right business goes on you know and I can't help but stand still while other people cover another 3-4 miles :) I actually even hang up on people I'm talking to, just so that I can get started with my left-right ritual...and then my friends complain for having called back an hour later...who'll explain to them now!! If I'm with someone, it sort of helps, not totally, cause then I'm usually laughed at loud for this weird fear of mine before they grant me a favor by helping me :| Even that varies! People like Joseph and Kelly who'v gotten used to it have the patience and don't mind it if I hold their hands tight, like a child does when with its mummieee!! Anjali pointed out that I hold it tight enough to fracture the hand :| I'm sorry! :( With others, after they'v made a laughing stock out of me, they just DRAG me along, usually I'm half flying into the air, considering the speed at which they run across the road...giving me a heart attack, a major one this time :) You know, I could actually stop dead in my tracks and get these kind of people run over by a car to thank them for all those he-he-ha-ha moments they'd had at my cost :| 

~This ones managed to ridicule me even the more...another phobia, Escalaphobia :) Thats the fear of 'Escalator's' btw :) point to be noted i have this phobia [ONLY THE ONE TALLER THEN 2-3 FLOORS] that horrible thing which takes you to the next floor and you just have to stand and not move, and its not the elavator!!! It gives me the jitters...(now you know why I HATE UNION STATION !!) Its almost everywhere!! I usually wait for the elavator or quitely take the stairs, not before explaining it to people around me, and then again welcoming obnoxious stares :) People wonder, whats there to be scared of THAT thing! For me, its not just a thing, its a nightmare, don't you understand!!Actually, it all started when I was a kid, I was prancing around at world trade center on an escalator which was apparently not working! Some idiot thought I wanted to use it, and switched it on :| I was caught unaware, and it somehow has gotten into my mind! and then on, while people use that horrible thing, I quitely slip back and use the stairs...literally the stairway to heaven :D People find it funny...I wish I could just ...errr...you know, make them realize how it feels !!! :(

~Lastly, I don't have any more random small talk to come up with! What to do? Just remember that you=you and not 'u', say no to slang, don't keep saying  what-the-fucking, don't ever try chilli sauce with sweet potatoes , never shop from Hobby Ideas, never go on evening walks with your mom and her best friend,  don't call a Keyboard a Piano :| ,  avoid reading 'dance of democracy' (atleast I do), don't think vampires are cool after you watch twilight, and lastly, dont dont ever dont ever never  tell your siblings  that your name means have something to do with COW in HINDI grrrrrrrrrrrr

Otherwise, Life is pretty much chocolate and  ice-cream :P

 

 

Still wild, will always be,Nandini !

 

WHY...thats the question....No? i think so ..

When I blog, it has to have a reason...i know it sounds as selfish as SELFISH can sound...but yeah...read it...or don't read it, you haven't been held at gun point :) Not yet ! Oh, anyways! I guess
its been REALLY long since I'v been  blogging, but still  dont know  the basic rules of making sense and that of showcasing your super cool sense of humor, forgive me...I wouldn't care a bit if you yawned or just scanned through or stopped reading it or worse, 'reported abuse' :| you know...I haven't got all the time in the world...which I really wish I'd have...*sigh* Bless you! lemme get to the point...no wait...a question actually...Not really...Oh well...it is a question may be...or is it? may be not...argghhh....Can I just get started with it ?!?!
Well...the question in question is WHY...spell as W.H.Y (and 'y' in sms lingo) pronounced as Va-y (now what was THAT for?!) there are SO many times when this word like totally makes you feel as though you are some sort of an alien...from some alien planet, where the way of life is so different...so much better...so much easier...then WHY is it this way out here on THIS planet? I tell you...this word clouds my mind more than ANY other word that i use (read: SENSIBLE word) Its often accompanied by a huge '?' and the 'wide-eyed' expression ! :O eg:
WHY cant we always be lucky? Lucky like one of those super-lucky-ducks who get WHATEVER they'v asked for...and i'm NOT talking of material things! I'm not that lame...But yeah...WHY do their stars always shine at the right time and at the right place?!!?! what are my stars doing?? Oh well...can't blame them...may be they are as lazy as me :) :( I never get to talk to people I want to talk to, I never get to be all alone when I want to, I never get to see people who make my day, I never get to avoid the company of people I totally am sick off, I'm never able to be totally mean and then not feel guilty, i'm never able to tell people what I really want and what I totally detest, I'm never able to ask people to SHUT UP and go suck up to someone else, I'm never able to tell people how much I hate their behavior...never....towards the end...when I really want to be mean and bitchy and rude and indifferent...WHY don't you get what you'v asked for? Oh well...its quite true that what you asked for was a bit tad too much...but WHY does it have to be 'too much' everytime? AND...that you remain all alone...even the meeniest to tiniest creature gets what they'v asked for ha! (half of which is not true...but its OK as long as its MY blog!!)  So basically, you never get anything...at the right time...at the right place...ask WHY? you don't know WHY??? duh ! Cause your stars are are busy vacationing :) They care two hoots about you :) nice no? And believe me...you slowly get used to it...like me, and then one fine day when your stars actually take pity on you and decide to shine down, you disown them...and then starts the conflict between you and your stars(with Mother Luck on their side)...Now whose to complain if you don't ever get lucky? tell me! Oh wait...who is even complaining in the first place :|
WHY do we have to stand people whom you TOTALLY can't stand...even if your life depended on them?? Well...thats cause THAT is a way to make you feel how hapless you actually are...you can almost picture the Gods laughing at you...Like...What the fuck ??? this hyper awesome human can't run away from a single person???!!!! But hey...as far as I know...these humans who so get on your lastest nerve know very well the art of FOLLOWING you around !!!!!! so basically...its just like Velcro ! can't do much...can you? if yes...then let me know!!! May be I can get this pseudo latex mask which can make me completely unrecognizable...won't that work??? hoping around with the mask??? how cool is that!!! may be it turns into some sort of a fashion statement :D :| Oh well...THIS just shows how freaked I am !
WHY do we have to smile...smile...AND smile for things we don't really want to agree to? Is it cause smiling is a means of just showing your approval...you mean it or you don't...even the devils neighbor wouldn't care ! initially you actually feel you CAN rebel and WILL go against those things...MAKE LIFE DIFFICULT for those doers...but then...gradually when you realize that Lady Luck hates you...and totally LOVES them...all this CAN and WILL and REBEL and MAKE LIFE DIFFICULT suddenly seems like some ancient joke...and now you know WHY exactly do you just smile ??? :)
WHY do we exactly have to embarrass ourselves??? tell you WHY? Basically cause thats the only thing you excel at...like...Looking into your reflection in the window of a car and adjusting your hair while there are people(who you do not know) sitting INSIDE the car...starring at you with shock-n-amusement...and then running away before they lower the pane ... :|  or the worse...You think you are a bit too smart(hah!) and so you complain about your own brother to your mom (for eg) while you'v made sure that he is not in the room...and then...you look up...to see WHAT? well...your bro standing right there...giving you the I-will-kill-you look of the decade...AND to prove your innocence you try and change the topic...but alas! this time your mom too adds to your efforts in embarrassing yourself...and she...acts like a totally amateurish actor and just stats fumbling...you start looking around...she starts looking around...oh well...WHERE is the back up plan now???!!!! look for it....quick...all the while...the intruder is smiling...uhh hh...the smile not exactly means a SMILE...but never mind...you'v already ruined your chances!!! and then...for the next whole week you have to act like your the most angelic angel cum sis on earth...ouch...just landed from heaven ! touche ! Nice no?
And finally...WHY do we live life to impress and not to express? WHY do we get up every day only to think of what we'll be doing to impress someone? WHY do we dress up just to act like Cleopatra who is just about to seduce someone?? :O WHY can't we not see a particular person and still be happy all throughout the day? WHY do we suddenly start acting like we'v always been this oh-i'm-miss-lovely-cum-cutie-cum-smiley-little-sunshine-kid-who-so-loves-giggling-and-making-oh la la kind of expressions everytime we see our hearthrobe ????!!!!! ridiculous no? and the worse is...we whine and crib and bore everyone around us with it...our heart wrenching tales...about what? about how we got all dressed up and still couldn't see that particular fellow. now! think about it...What if the guy/girl totally HATES you...or may be prefers to be in the company of some 3 eyed green monster than look at you...or worse...what if they actually ARE scared of you??? would you like kill them just cause you'v lived life to impress THEM...and now you just WANT them to be impressed...and so...you just WANT them to hold up with you??!! come on...grow up!! Express yourself...Impress yourself...Embarrass yourself...oops...!!! Oh wait...this impress thingy doesn't really make sense to me ha...Anyways...see, I don't really intend to come to any sort of conclusion...cause half of the above stuff are a part of my problamatic life :D May be its just a way to connect to you...thats if you DO live a life half as crazy and silly as mine :D Bottom Line: No talk really makes sense...cause evry talk these days is FREAK TALK :P no?
AND...you have no idea how much more better I feel after blogging...Must do it a little too often...talk crap or will die... ...don't ask WHY though :D


INSANE.................Nandini !!!