Laugh ''Not''

I can't express regret, grief, concern or sadness anymore.

After the bad times, laughter was all I was left with.

I Laughed through all the pain, called it the 'side-effects' of the bad times.

But now laughter has left me hollow,empty and lifeless.


It seems as if, after all the laughs
Life is laughing at me.


And I stand there
broken again.


No more Laughs


But still I stand there laughing,

With the biggest joke been played on me......

Just Nandini !

Me being Me ..

I want to be a doctor... not a patient. In fact I don't really like doctors or hospitals from a patients perspective. Maybe the subconscious reason that I'm studying medicine is "If you can't beat them... join them."

Anyway, to the point.A word that fills me with dread.  I've  hospital appointment Today and i really dont wana hear what the Doc will say .. so I'm kinda nervous... was looking for some soul support but some ppl. they are never around when u need them ..

 So just getting my  Jittery feeling out on you Dear Blog ..

My Apologies for any overshare..

Sealed with a kiss by Nandini !

shitsvilla AKA Splitsvilla .......Again noooooooooooo!!

Splitsvilla (or shitzvilla)- a show where a bunch of worthless, good for nothing guys and girls are taken to a place and asked to date each other and eventually dump each other. Sounds fun right? Yes! This is MTV splitsvilla - downright disgusting and degrading. A show so horrible that it makes me feel as if someone put their hand down my throat, grabbed my small intestine, pulled it out of my mouth and tied it around my neck.

I really have no idea what they try to achieve.
- which couple looks the best
- who can wear the skimpiest clothes
- to compete with the beauties of the world (God! Why do they even try?)
- to get cheap publicity
- who can stoop the lowest
- to finally get a “happily ever after” ending to such a repulsive show


It is pathetic to see girls competing with each other for a guy and performing various tasks like mud wrestling to win them over. These girls go till the extent of wearing skimpy swimming costumes or dancing provocatively to win their guy. They literally beg and plead to the guy and they get shunted off rudely. What public humiliation! Yuck! It insults the very meaning of the emotion of “Love”. And the amount of crocodile tears shed when someone is dumped…it really makes me wanna snap everyone’s neck. Plan, plot, play and dump- that’s what this show portrays. Let go of your final iota of self respect and there you go…you’re perfect for this show!

 I bet Splitsvilla 3 will have even more shameful stuff coming your way!

What do you think?? Is stooping so low for the 5 lakh prize money really worth it???

Sealed with a kiss by Nandini !

Expectations 2

We all think we're going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectation aren't met,
but sometimes our expectations fall short.
Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected.
You've got to wonder why we cling to our expectations because,
the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing still,
and the expected is just the beginning.
The unexpected is what changes our lives.
~ Closing quotes of Grey's Anatomy Season 2,episode .

Expectations is a something which we all carry around with us.
Personally I am really not a fan of expectations, in fact thats one thing I really wanted to get away from, and to certain extend did but a few fragments of it still cling to me. And no matter what I do they don't leave me, I guess they are using Fevicol - 'as they say Fevicol ka joor toote ga nahi' :P

We all say the best way to go is having ''No Expectations''.
But the truth is if we have no expectations, then we will be like a dead soul wondering around with nothing to look forward to. Pain and happiness are the sides of the same coin, a coin which works in Kingdom Life. My DAD just pointed out to me that our Dreams and Goals are also expectations does that mean we should stop dreaming ??
I guess not, Expectations will always cling to us in one form or the other, all we can do is, filter our expectations and root out some of the weeds in them, channelize our expectations towards ourself away from others because many a times its the others who don't live up to our expectations than us going the honors.

Well talking of the unexpected, thats where a new journey begins into the unknown and sometimes the unknown surprises us in a way that the known could never reap its pleasure.

Well I must say Expectations has left me really confused,
I guess having Expectations is a part of being human.

I so wanna be an alien : P : P

P.S - This post is a product of my disconnected thoughts on expectations, I guess someday I might be able to make some sense of it. Till then I hope you guys throw some light on it :D 

Sealed with a kiss by Nandini !

YOU MIGHT WONDER WHY...

I went to a very posh lunch with  My Dad and My brother Amit where the average age was between fifty and a hundred. Lunches like that can be slightly straining and when I’m in a circle of people I’m not completely at ease with, I do one of two things. I either be quite and just smile  or try to make people laugh. On arriving at functions, I test the crowd with either a lighthearted compliment or an obvious joke, see which one has them smiling and run with it. On this particular occasion, I hit them with ‘Is this the graveyard shift?’ which didn’t go down too well and following that I asked the Dad‘So is lunch on you or do we have to eat off boring plates?’ which had a similar effect.

So without realising it or being able to control it, I took on a whole new tact. I started talking like Anne Hathaway. And not Devil Wears Prada Anne Hathaway, Shakespeare’s wife Anne Hathaway. And God help me, I couldn’t stop.
Dad: This is Nandini.
Me: How do you do?
Host: I’m wonderful thanks.
Me: Splendid. Excuse the interruption, where would one find the water closet?
Host: Straight down the hall to your left.
Me: Thank you ever so much.

While harmless, it got worse when we sat down at a table which seated a small country and I was placed between a professor of something unpronounceable and a woman who definitely had her lifted eyes on my Dad.

Me: You have a lovely abode.

Amit: Nandini, why the hell are you speaking like that?
Me: Hush young man.:P 

Amit: Nanu, you sound like an idiot.
Me: Methinks not.
Host: Nandini, help yourself to some with some food .

Me: Why, it is most beauteous.

Dad: *Whispers* Nandini, why are you speaking like this?
Me: *Whispers* I have no idea. Please make me stop.

A complete lunch of ‘What say you’s?’ and ‘perchance’ and many walks in the garden to stop me from speaking to people, we were eventually able to leave.

Host: Goodbye , I’m sorry you have to leave so soon. 

Dad: Great seeing you but we must get back to the time warp that Nandini seems to be stuck in.

so yes this was my one event full day :P

Sealed with  kiss by Nandini !

Me as an Example...

  Yesterday's , in  my  class I was definitely NOT paying attention. So what was I thinking about then, if not about what the professor was saying? Well, I started thinking about how much money I would give away to family (and possibly others non-related) if I won the lottery. I know right, how the hell do I even start thinking about something like that... and even worse, I was so into it too, probably like 10 mins. went by and I didn't even notice. So anyways, I snapped back to reality when the professor started talking about a trip she made to Italy  one time (I think it was work related... remember I wasn't paying that much of attention) and how she met this young Japanese girl who was nice and who looked like me. Me?...:O  Are you serious? I don't look ANYTHING Japanese, Chines  NOTHING! So everyone turned to look at my non-Japanese facial features. At least it wasn't as bad as the time my  professor back in  college  compared me to a French woman with hairy armpits...:P  let me fill you in:

I'm in class, listening to his life stories.
He was talking about a trip he made once to France
and about how "You just look around and see women dressed
like... like Nandini , and then they'd put their arm up and
they'd have a super hairy armpit, it was so disgusting to me..:x
but it's normal there so." :p

P.S. In case you were wondering, if I win over $8 million in the lottery I'd probably give $1 million each  to my Mum,and Dad  $10  to my brothers..:) but they  wouldn't be able to touch it just yet (cause they'd spend it WAY too fast), a couple of thousands to the rest of my family, like buaa, Masi , vinay bhaiya and probably $2 thousand more to a friend. The rest for me of course, and nothing for ......Anjali :P But anyways, I just checked the jackpot for right now and it's at $12 million... See, I'm a giver...:)


Sealed with a kiss by Nandini !

Results of a MY survey!!

This post is about what my friends think about me....huh!

Actually we all of my get together some time back   the post is a result of a survey I conducted...or we conducted.

lemme explain ...

I and my friends...actually 9 of us...took 9 bowls ....one for each of us...then all of us wrote about what we feel about each person...but identity was not revealed.....that is we could write anything about anyone without that person knowing who wrote it about him/her..

I should tell you that we are 5 girls and 4 boys in this group...

I got mostly good comments...from my friends..but...bad comments too...I actually did one more thing..that is repeating the survey with my dad and mom...


so here goes the results...


##You are a very honest person...not in the sense of..what we normally think ..but in the sense of honesty to self..which makes you regret less about things happening in your life.

##A girl who is very up to date in thoughts..and has  a cool fashion sense..and so is seen mostly in anything she finds to wear....but..loves to wear salwar suits..as she is a proud Indian.


##Always first to say sorry at times of quarrels..of fights..and has thank you at the tips of her tongue...and so half of the phone bill is because of sorry s and thank you s.

##The funnest  person one can ever find....Knows that everyone need their own spaces...but never demand for her's...so sweet. ( totally confused personality)

##Very very argumentative...can become a lawyer....always first to question the teachers... and make the whole class laugh with your stupid...questions.

##Kind to animals...very kind.....loves them very much..less kind to friends.:x

##Perfect personality..can be mature sometimes..very mature...but....doesn't loose her...chulbuli types behavior (here chulbuli means chirpy).

##Loves parents so much...some time brothers too ..:P

As I told you all that I did this survey with my parents too..huh!.

Mom:..sensitive, understanding,funny, polite, kind...and  very obedient ...meri pari .:)

Dad:.spontaneous...very intelligent, humble, single Daughter ..a spoilt brat...and..loving..my perfect NANHI PARI :)


ps:) I first thought to post it as a scanned document..but because there were many bits of paper so I couldn't.

pps:) you can add ur comments to good or bad..k

Sealed with akiss by Nandini !