its been REALLY long since I'v been blogging, but still dont know the basic rules of making sense and that of showcasing your super cool sense of humor, forgive me...I wouldn't care a bit if you yawned or just scanned through or stopped reading it or worse, 'reported abuse' :| you know...I haven't got all the time in the world...which I really wish I'd have...*sigh* Bless you! lemme get to the point...no wait...a question actually...Not really...Oh well...it is a question may be...or is it? may be not...argghhh....Can I just get started with it ?!?!
Well...the question in question is WHY...spell as W.H.Y (and 'y' in sms lingo) pronounced as Va-y (now what was THAT for?!) there are SO many times when this word like totally makes you feel as though you are some sort of an alien...from some alien planet, where the way of life is so different...so much better...so much easier...then WHY is it this way out here on THIS planet? I tell you...this word clouds my mind more than ANY other word that i use (read: SENSIBLE word) Its often accompanied by a huge '?' and the 'wide-eyed' expression ! :O eg:
WHY cant we always be lucky? Lucky like one of those super-lucky-ducks who get WHATEVER they'v asked for...and i'm NOT talking of material things! I'm not that lame...But yeah...WHY do their stars always shine at the right time and at the right place?!!?! what are my stars doing?? Oh well...can't blame them...may be they are as lazy as me :) :( I never get to talk to people I want to talk to, I never get to be all alone when I want to, I never get to see people who make my day, I never get to avoid the company of people I totally am sick off, I'm never able to be totally mean and then not feel guilty, i'm never able to tell people what I really want and what I totally detest, I'm never able to ask people to SHUT UP and go suck up to someone else, I'm never able to tell people how much I hate their behavior...never....towards the end...when I really want to be mean and bitchy and rude and indifferent...WHY don't you get what you'v asked for? Oh well...its quite true that what you asked for was a bit tad too much...but WHY does it have to be 'too much' everytime? AND...that you remain all alone...even the meeniest to tiniest creature gets what they'v asked for ha! (half of which is not true...but its OK as long as its MY blog!!) So basically, you never get anything...at the right time...at the right place...ask WHY? you don't know WHY??? duh ! Cause your stars are are busy vacationing :) They care two hoots about you :) nice no? And believe me...you slowly get used to it...like me, and then one fine day when your stars actually take pity on you and decide to shine down, you disown them...and then starts the conflict between you and your stars(with Mother Luck on their side)...Now whose to complain if you don't ever get lucky? tell me! Oh wait...who is even complaining in the first place :|
WHY do we have to stand people whom you TOTALLY can't stand...even if your life depended on them?? Well...thats cause THAT is a way to make you feel how hapless you actually are...you can almost picture the Gods laughing at you...Like...What the fuck ??? this hyper awesome human can't run away from a single person???!!!! But hey...as far as I know...these humans who so get on your lastest nerve know very well the art of FOLLOWING you around !!!!!! so basically...its just like Velcro ! can't do much...can you? if yes...then let me know!!! May be I can get this pseudo latex mask which can make me completely unrecognizable...won't that work??? hoping around with the mask??? how cool is that!!! may be it turns into some sort of a fashion statement :D :| Oh well...THIS just shows how freaked I am !
WHY do we have to smile...smile...AND smile for things we don't really want to agree to? Is it cause smiling is a means of just showing your approval...you mean it or you don't...even the devils neighbor wouldn't care ! initially you actually feel you CAN rebel and WILL go against those things...MAKE LIFE DIFFICULT for those doers...but then...gradually when you realize that Lady Luck hates you...and totally LOVES them...all this CAN and WILL and REBEL and MAKE LIFE DIFFICULT suddenly seems like some ancient joke...and now you know WHY exactly do you just smile ??? :)
WHY do we exactly have to embarrass ourselves??? tell you WHY? Basically cause thats the only thing you excel at...like...Looking into your reflection in the window of a car and adjusting your hair while there are people(who you do not know) sitting INSIDE the car...starring at you with shock-n-amusement...and then running away before they lower the pane ... :| or the worse...You think you are a bit too smart(hah!) and so you complain about your own brother to your mom (for eg) while you'v made sure that he is not in the room...and then...you look up...to see WHAT? well...your bro standing right there...giving you the I-will-kill-you look of the decade...AND to prove your innocence you try and change the topic...but alas! this time your mom too adds to your efforts in embarrassing yourself...and she...acts like a totally amateurish actor and just stats fumbling...you start looking around...she starts looking around...oh well...WHERE is the back up plan now???!!!! look for it....quick...all the while...the intruder is smiling...uhh hh...the smile not exactly means a SMILE...but never mind...you'v already ruined your chances!!! and then...for the next whole week you have to act like your the most angelic angel cum sis on earth...ouch...just landed from heaven ! touche ! Nice no?
And finally...WHY do we live life to impress and not to express? WHY do we get up every day only to think of what we'll be doing to impress someone? WHY do we dress up just to act like Cleopatra who is just about to seduce someone?? :O WHY can't we not see a particular person and still be happy all throughout the day? WHY do we suddenly start acting like we'v always been this oh-i'm-miss-lovely-cum-cutie-cum-smiley-little-sunshine-kid-who-so-loves-giggling-and-making-oh la la kind of expressions everytime we see our hearthrobe ????!!!!! ridiculous no? and the worse is...we whine and crib and bore everyone around us with it...our heart wrenching tales...about what? about how we got all dressed up and still couldn't see that particular fellow. now! think about it...What if the guy/girl totally HATES you...or may be prefers to be in the company of some 3 eyed green monster than look at you...or worse...what if they actually ARE scared of you??? would you like kill them just cause you'v lived life to impress THEM...and now you just WANT them to be impressed...and so...you just WANT them to hold up with you??!! come on...grow up!! Express yourself...Impress yourself...Embarrass yourself...oops...!!! Oh wait...this impress thingy doesn't really make sense to me ha...Anyways...see, I don't really intend to come to any sort of conclusion...cause half of the above stuff are a part of my problamatic life :D May be its just a way to connect to you...thats if you DO live a life half as crazy and silly as mine :D Bottom Line: No talk really makes sense...cause evry talk these days is FREAK TALK :P no?
AND...you have no idea how much more better I feel after blogging...Must do it a little too often...talk crap or will die... ...don't ask WHY though :D
INSANE.................Nandini !!!
